learning to breathe //

3:58 PM


why is it so
hard to show people
the pain?
to open up
to the people around you.
it's like no matter 
how hard i try,
the words just won't
come.
i try to be real
but am afraid
of living
transparently.
because what
would happen
if people saw my
scars?
the hurt.
the pain.
the flaws.
being real is 
a struggle--
it's easier to wear 
a mask.
we try to use
our silence like an oxygen 
mask, not realizing
that it is the
very thing
that's
suffocating 
us.
in the end, 
we can only live
freely
when we strip off 
our masks
and learn to breathe.

It's hard for me to be real with people sometimes. It's not like I'm trying to hide my problems, but I guess it's just easier to. Maybe it's time to start changing that.

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  1. "we try to use our silence like an oxygen mask, not realizing that it is the very thing that's suffocating us." *is utterly and completely speechless* I CAN'T EVEN WORD, MARY.

    *tries desperately to think of something articulate to say* *fails because this means too much to me to try and fit words into a measly little comment* THANK YOU for sharing this, girl. You're the best. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

    ~ Savannah
    scattered-scribblings.blogspot.com

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    1. OMW, SAVANNAH, YOUR COMMENT. <3 Like...people commenting something I wrote in quotation marks just makes me so happy for some reason. XD

      YOU'RE the best! Thank you so much for your sweet words. You always know how to make me smile. ^_^

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  2. I was literally about to quote this part: "we try to use our silence like an oxygen mask, not realizing that it is the very thing that's suffocating us." when I saw Savannah's comment! And, like her, I CAN'T EVEN WORD. This is just...WELL. THERE ARE NO WORDS.

    I think you're already being beautifully transparent sharing this. You're an inspiration, girl. Love you! <333

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    1. EEEP!!! You guys! I'M SPEECHLESS. <3

      Oh my...what do I even say to this?! I don't know what else to say except love you, girl. <3

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  3. Woooow. I can totally relate to this. Beautiful. <3

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    1. Ahhhh, I'm so glad you liked it! <3 (And that I'm not the only one to struggle with this.)

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  4. wooooooooww this is..wow. such truth here

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  5. Wow. I am totally blown away. I have a VERY hard time talking about my feelings, so this was VERY meaningful for me. Thank you SO MUCH for sharing.
    I am 100% LOVING this blog!!

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    1. AWWW. Thank you so much, Hanna! Same here. I'm a very emotional person, yet I often keep my emotions hidden from people around me. Glad I'm not the only one who struggles with this!

      ACK, YOU'RE JUST THE SWEETEST! Thanks again, dear!

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    2. No, you're definitely not alone!
      You're welcome.

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  6. This was very well done, Mary! It touches on a few things I've been thinking about, too.

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    1. Thank you so much, Blue! This is something that's on my mind a lot, especially recently for some reason.

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  7. This is beautiful, Mary!! I feel the same as Hanna, I often find it difficult to talk about my feelings, so I can totally relate!! :-)

    ~Skylar

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    1. Awww, thank you, Skylar! Yes, I'm in the same boat as you two. It's a tricky thing for me to open up to people around me, especially face-to-face.

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    2. Ack, face-to-face is SO hard! I can often put my feelings into writing, but just SAYING them. . . *shivers* I often write about my feelings when something hard happens and then let my family read it!

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    3. Isn't it? For whatever reason, it's so much harder to talk about my feelings in person. That's one of the reasons I love writing so much: it lets me express my feelings clearly. :)

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  8. This is beautiful! Your poem means so much to me, especially because I have trouble opening up to people about my feelings and problems!

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    1. Awww, thank you so much! I'm glad it really had an impact. <3 The main reason I wrote it was because it's something I struggle with a lot, too.

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  9. OH. MY. WORD. This is so beautiful, Mary! <3 (I don't even think there are words to describe my thoughts and feelings about this poem!) And I can TOTALLY relate. It's so hard for me to be myself around people. To be 100% me. You're not alone, Mary. :)

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    1. EEP KARYSSA!!! <3 You are such a sweetheart! It's so comforting to know that I'm not the only one who struggles with this--being open about my feelings is haaaard.

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